As my depression fades away,
An emptiness floods in,
I fear that it is here to stay,
And I reflect on where I've been.
I don't know how to smile,
I don't know how to laugh,
I forgot how to love,
I forgot happiness,
At least when I was depressed,
I felt a deep sadness,
But now that it is gone,
I feel nothing at all.
I no longer feel weighed down,
Pulled down into the ground,
Buried in the dirt,
But this is so much worse.
I can't remember how to breathe,
Without feeling a stabbing,
I don't know what to do,
Now that I'm over you.
Depression come back,
I want to feel you again,
Pressing on my lungs,
Stabbing my heart,
Cutting my wrists,
Why can't I feel,
That feeling anymore,
I wish I could,
For now I am hollow.
I was in that hole so long,
I was blinded by the darkness,
I was taken from the world,
I lived all by myself,
And now I see the sun,
I'm back in the world,
But this is not where I belong,
This is not my home,
The sun shows my weakness,
It shows how ugly I am,
It shines with innocence,
It makes me feel inhuman,
For I am not perfect,
And the sun is,
So when it shines on me,
Looks down on me,
I feel guilty.
I'm not used to the attention,
I'm not used to no more pain,
I just want it all back,
I want to feel like myself,
Again.
COMMENTS FROM ME, THE AUTHOR OF THIS POEM:
This is about how hard it is after you get rid of depression. It was who I was for so long, that I forgot how to be my old self. I still don't know how. I was depressed for 3 years, and now I'm not. It scares me. The hardest part is being cured. <3Emily
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