Just once, I wish I could feel like I belong.
Just once, I wish I could feel like
There is absolutely nothing wrong with me
Being in a certain place,
Or talkin to other people.
But that won't happen,
Because I'm living in a dream world.
A world where I am loved,
And no one is hurt because of me.
Where I am held when I am mad,
Where I have a shoulder to cry on and
I am not afraid to cry.
Showing fear or love would never be an issue,
I could be as weak as I want, because someone
Will always be there to take care of me.
Not having to take care of others, only myself,
A blessing that would surely be.
But as I know my own name, I know
That this will never happen.
I am not loveable,
I can not cry.
I must take care of others, I must be strong.
I am not permitted to be afraid,
And I am not permitted to be held.
But just once it would be nice,
To be able to do even one of these things.
No one cares, so I will stop.
This battle is becoming to hard,
This fight too taxing.
There is just one thing I absolutely want to know;
Am I alone?
I know I am, why do I ask?
Because I can not stand the thought,
Of not having someone to hold me,
Of not being able to cry, show fear, and be weak.
Now, though, I will put it aside, for I will never get
What I seek.
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